Throughout my struggles with weight there is one thing that has been consistent. No matter what I do, whether it's good or bad I fail to give my self credit or take responsibility. Example: The other night I was at youth group and somebody brought in a bunch of cupcakes. I had eaten relatively well throughout the day so I decided to treat myself. The first cupcake was SO good. It tasted exactly how I wanted it to and I was very satisfied with it. If I had stopped at one cupcake this post would be much shorter but... I had a second cupcake. The thing is, when I took the first bite it didn't taste half as good as the first cupcake and I knew that I wasn't really craving the cupcake and I should have put it down. When I finished the second one, I felt guilty AND I was too full. To say the least, I was disappointed in myself for eating the cupcake even though I knew all along that I shouldn't have. However, it could have been much worse. I could have completely fallen off the wagon and said, "screw it, I already messed up so there's no point in trying to fix it now."
Long story short, I am working on finding the positive and negative in all situations especially when it comes to food. Bad thing: I OVERindulged. Good thing: I didn't eat the whole box.
Anyway, I'm about 7 lbs away from hitting my first milestone, -50 lbs. Hopefully I'll be able to hit that mark and keep on working my way towards Onederland ;)
I've been stuck around 230 for months now, so I'm working hard to break through my plateau!
