New Revelations

Hey there!

So the past few weeks I've been particularly frustrated with my body. During the month of December, I was going to the gym 6 days a week and working really hard. I knew I was pushing myself pretty hard, but I really didn't want to gain a whole bunch of weight over the holidays. When I stepped on the scale at Weight Watcher's I was disappointed because I gained a few pounds one week and then lost a few ounces the next. I was confused because I knew I was putting in so much effort, but I really wasn't seeing the outcome I had hoped for. Then I realized why... I thought that because I was working out extra hard, I could eat like a maniac and still see results. Boy was I wrong!

This week at my meeting, a woman in attendance said, "If you want to see results, you have to work the WHOLE program." This really hit home for me because I knew that I wasn't working the whole program. I was focusing a lot in one area and not paying much attention to the others. I've learned throughout this experience that lack of exercise is not my problem. I love working out. I love it when I can really feel my muscles working and I love that soreness the next day because it shows just how hard I worked.

My biggest problem is food. My relationship with food was really unhealthy. I would eat when I was bored, lonely, sad, and tired. I never thought about what I was putting in my mouth. I think part of the reason I turned to it so much was because after I'd eat, I would feeling something. I think that I also turned to food to avoid dealing with my other problems and emotions. If I was stuffed our full or satisfied, I could feel that instead of feeling what I really should have (anger, sadness, frustration). As I'm learning more and more about my body, I'm trying to monitor when I'm eating, what I'm eating and the reason I'm eating.

Here's my biggest revelation of all... get ready!

I feel SO much better when I'm eating healthy foods to satisfy a physical hunger instead of eating junk food to satisfy an emotional or mental hunger! (Sounds kind of like a no brainer doesn't it :)

When I'm eating foods I know are good for me, not only does my body feel better, but my brain feels better too. I can think more clearly and I focus more easily. Also, when I really take the time to feel the emotions that come up, my whole being is in a lot better shape (mentally, physically and emotionally)

Well, there's today's insight!

Gracie